Recently I was a little hurt by something that happened to me. It certainly wasn't the worst thing that has ever happened to me, and I didn't even loose any sleep over it (which is saying a lot for me), but it's just been an uncomfortable and even a little painful feeling for me.
After venting about it a little to a trusted source, and discussing my options, I choose a course of action. And while I still don't regret doing what I did, the next result brought even a little more pain than I initially felt as a product of circumstance. It certainly wasn't what I hoped for, and I'm still mulling things through, as I'm trying get past the ill ease, pain, and contentious thoughts.
Shortly after my moment of greatest pain (concerning this incident), I had to go get Cooper, who was waking up from a nap. I can't explain what happened next except for with the label of maternal instinct.
At that moment, I vocalized exactly what I felt in my heart as I picked my child up. It was a quick prayer that he wouldn't feel pain like I do--that he wouldn't be as sensitive as I am--in all the "wrong" and unproductive ways. But that he could be sensitive in the ways that make me a good person, and useful, especially God's power behind me. And then I instantly thought about how Guy already seems to be pretty sensitive in some ways, and I prayed for those things for him, too.
I have been a mom for over two and one half years now, but I don't remember feeling that feeling so strongly ever before. I'm so grateful for the love that I have for my children. I know they will face pain, discomfort, and ill ease in their lives, but I pray that I can mostly be there for them--and only mostly because I want them to learn that the source of greatest comfort can come from our Father in Heaven. So there is my silver lining in a moment of ill ease. Thank goodness for tender mercies.
I'm grateful that I'm a mom, and I'm grateful for the knowledge I have and the comfort that I receive from Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and The Holy Ghost.
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What a blessing it is to have those special moments. Especially when we need them.
I hope things get better.
I'm looking for a "like" button. Very nice thoughts.
beautiful thoughts.
I'm sorry that someone hurt your feelings. What a sweet moma moment.
Unfortunately those moments of having your feelings hurt don't seem to end with adolescence. They do however through that painful experience teach us patience, tolerance, and compassion. Those painful experiences also allow growth and later, wisdom. Aren't we so blessed to have the gift of the Lord's tender mercies? Hope things are going better. Hang in there.
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